8-1-01
10:42pm

shit. well, ive had time for the initial shock to wear off, but what a day....
this chic at work offered to have lunch with me today (i didnt work today) so i came by during her lunch break...
so what i thought woulda been going out turned into ending up at her place, where i was propositioned.
i politely sed i was processing it all.

but shit. this chic is 32, and not only that, but a mother of 3, and has a live-in boyfriend.
sweet buh-geezzus.

how weird would it be to take up an offer like that?
to totally blow off morals, what youve thought of growing up to be wrong?
what would one choice do to change my life?

it seemed so unreal, so uncomfortable, something out of a fucking movie.
admittedly, i was fucking scared. i got myself into it.
shit. and i hate dragging myself out.
ive done it before with a chic from work that i didnt like...
that was sketchy in the time-being, getting threatened and all,
but all is good now, and i havent been stalked since she got fired...

i guess working at a grocery store theres a lot more excitement than youd think.
all the lifers with their crazy backgrounds.... she was telling me some of hers, with domestic violence, custody battles, random flings, a bout with liver cancer.
oh my god. going through chemotherapy.
she sez she doesnt want any attatchments.
well shit. thats what i want in my perfect relationship, and i sure as hell wont find it there.
its too bad, cuz she has a really fun personality.
most likely things will be weird now....
bummer...

after that shock i went and hung with amidy.
one of their roomies is leaving for NY to become a Dr.
but anyway, we went to queen anne hill, and ate at world wraps.
on the way, there was this cop chilling at a stop sign intersection.
this totally fucked up traffic, everyone was waiting like 5 seconds before going again.
but the cop didnt really realize this, cuz all he was doin was puffin on a stogie checkin out the same hot chix as me that were walking by.
taxes in their full effect =D

well. tomorrow im faced with bringing rejection.
we'll see how it all turns out.
why dont hot chix MY AGE do this kinda shit?
is it a maturity thing?
bah. its still so surreal.
im too fucking curious, is what it is.