ya know, theres a lot of knowledge and possesions out there....
people use this to impress others. i guess its all interaction is...
cuz what is there.. interaction is either trying to impress by showing knowledge, or teaching, which is in itself expressing knowledge, whether theres the impression intent, thats left unknown, but most likely.

anyway. people can use possesions to try to impress people...
people can make up things to try to impress people....
once found out, these people are called out....
this is why people like chris and pat cant be taken seriously.
cuz theyre full of shit.
i was even told today, "people appreciate the truth." by some random customer i was BSing with.
people want to know whats real...
they feel deceived and let down by those who never speak a word of the truth...

so i saw another side of chris last night....
i think the only reason he came over was this one intent:
air, dan, wank, po, and i stopped by chris' house while he was away.
there was supposed to be mass skankage provided by chris' brother drew, who stayed behind, but he didnt come through...
instead there were half-nekid men of the verge of man-gina. scared shitless, we bolted, but had to wait for dan to answer the call of nature...

anyway.. thats the story.... we came, we saw, we left.
chris came last night and pushed and pushed...
"what did you guys steal?!"
cuz he saw me motion to air when he showed up to take care of the shitload of mints.
"you know, its cool to steal from godfathers, in fact, more power to you for doing it, but stealing from me, my personal stuff, thats not."
so i let him in on how it was just the mints.
but shit. sure maybe with our quick entrance and leaving, that is suspectful, but not only did he have no idea what was stolen (cuz nothing was), but he was giving me the 3rd degree!

to me, with that kind of mind set, it seems like we're dealing with a guilty conscience.
"ok, so i didnt take dans gameboy, so what did you guys take from me?"
exact words.

parties give me a whole different mindset.
actually its rather pessimistic.
but ya know what? everyone just sucks it up and deals with how things are....
that everyones just out to impress someone else, because thats what human interaction is all about, i guess.
maybe thats just why i watch most of the time, because its interesting, yet disgusting....

people look around for approval...
shit. im no different. but i just notice it is all.
i cant change it either.
theres the pessimism.