finally published my shit. i'd like you to know that although it sez 8:33 pm, its actually 10:24 pm.

yes. ashleigh is mean. i talked to maegan. she sed that ashleigh kept my birthday present from when i last saw her, but only because it was cute, and is keeping no memory from who its from, or what it means.
she still hurts me even though i havent talked to her in over two weeks.
cutting off all ties. im done. im done. i thought she might come to her senses, figure out that i did nothing to hurt her.
no, i've annoyed her to the point of hatred. great. well. ive been past the worst. this is just the tail end. showing that she cant face her problems. that was the last thing i told her... "just dont run away from your problems in life."
yeah.. that didnt go over well.....

but. im getting back into the swing of things. ive got my peeps. moving to seattle would help, so i dont have to go past her 85th exit anymore.

wow. relationships suck if they all end like this. maybe in the future i wont be as attatched and the break up will be understood, (as in verbally announced) and i'll want to move on.

anyway. life goes on. she chose to make herself look bad. but what does it matter what people think of you? especially if you never see them again, eh?

my sisters roomate that you all herd, shes been helping me through this. she doesnt think so, but she helps...
i hope she isnt embarrassed by this:

minmanner: peeps become mean because they are weak
CHiCKeNBoB10: oh.
minmanner: strong peeps wouldn't have to act like that....
CHiCKeNBoB10: i guess.....
minmanner: its true
minmanner: they would have the guts to face the problem...
CHiCKeNBoB10: that, is true.
CHiCKeNBoB10: she couldnt face up to anything
minmanner: that doesn't mean the problem gets fixed, but it's confronted..
minmanner: not just allowed to weakly slip by...
CHiCKeNBoB10: yeah......

i look more like a dumbass in that convo than anything. but yeah. shes right. ashleighs not a mean person,
she just didnt know how to handle what was going on. sux that it came to what it did though.

this is why friends that are chix are good. they can maybe kinda figure out what other chix are thinking or feeling.
i appreciate her help. and too bad all you guys were introduced in kinda a bad way...
which of you havent made complete fools of yourself when drunk?
yeah...... so... fuck my three blogs in a day.