oh. you do things for a made up reason.
but then you forget ...
no wait. youve made a covered up way to get around your problems, but then you realize what youve done and it surprises you cuz its your bad habit.
an thats just like an addiction.

a beginning and an end is hard.
whoever thought up cause and effect is a genius!!

there! thats what i spent all this tonight doing! spewing all that just to say
cause and effect.
ohshit. im getting worse.