i cant ever get what i want when i want it.
but just give it some time, and then when all is passed, and i no longer yearn or need it,
its all up in my face begging for attention.

but i just cant do it.
i look at the past, and its like, why wasnt that a perfectly good time?
and now ive grown too much to think anything good will come of this.

that. or.
i just always want what i cant have, and dont want it when i wait my turn and can.