manuel, manuel.
i dont know.
its my same sad story.

but heres the thing.
you cant help her!
she'll keep pushing.
it cant be a normal relationship....
but here i am.
calming down from seeing her for the first time after 6 mos. and now im wondering.
hmm. i really miss her.
i really miss the closeness.
.....but then i remember talking to her parents. them saying that ashleighs older brother went through the same thing.
having a sick girlfriend... and it shouldnt have to be his or our responsibility to take care of them, no matter how much we want to.
its just a drain. as shat as it is to say, youre just drug down with them, and it shouldnt be like that.
especially in the beginning stages of figuring out relationships.
sure you care.
but they wont let you help.

ah fuck it.
i still want to see her one last time.