3 things:

1) it took me an hour to get from dans dorm to the 520 on ramp.
i was an hour and a half late to work and they made me make it up..
they probably thought i was out enjoying the sun, when in actuality i was choking on car exhaust fumes...
they always take me to be this "kid".. when i called in sick, they accused me of doing it to watch the mariner game, ok, so i wasnt sick, but im not that petty, i did it because i had two midterms to study for.

2) we looked at that eyesore of a house... was about the same on the inside as the outside... but i guess whilst i was en route to fucking hell, the guys found a better place.. I WANNA SEE!! it sounds like a pretty good deal and is closer to UW than matt and Bs place... im easy, i'll do whatever, i'll move in whenever, i'll pay whatever... oh wait, no ...well reasonably.

3) manuel, buddy, shit. i know your pain.
what you say is almost to the tee of how i felt...
she was happier leaving me.
she wouldnt give me a chance.
situations were shit, and just as they were starting to get better, she gave up.
i dont get it either.. and it is cold shit.
i got to the point of questioning myself.. but it wasnt my fault.. the continual not giving her space, maybe was... but she just couldnt deal... then when space was given, she still saw it as the old ways...
not to get you down, but in the begginning, it was her idea to just be friends... maybe thats just the cheap way out because the other person is supposed to get pissed at that or whatever... but i was all for it, and she still couldnt see it... bah!
i dont really know what i can tell you.. just... get ouT! do shit. hang out with people you havent seen in a while... take your mind off it.
sure you might feel down when yer out, and might not even want to be there... but there will be times when you are out that it will slip your mind... and thats what you need...
after almost a month of not talking to her, i dont get those deep painful feelings, but i do have times when im just like, what the hell?
why the hell couldnt it work? why the hell wouldnt she let it work? we were happy... but she needed to discover herself, so she sed..
she has to figure out who SHE is.. shes been in a relationship pretty much since age 16, shes tired of being known as so-and-so's boyfriend. i always wondered why she wouldnt go hang out with my friends.. i guess its cuz she didnt want to really get to know my life.. she didnt hang out with any of her friends til recently... til she was near rid of me.... it hurts. i get sad. i dont get it. i wish i wasnt so restricted. i miss her family, her dog, her cats, her room, her face, her laugh, her smile, etc etc. but what can you do?
i could wait forever for her to call... but she wont.. shes happier w/o seeing me...
her saying is. "i like all my ex-boyfriends, i dont want to really see them anymore, but i dont wish any harm upon them."
yeh.. well thanx... i guess.....
.... i feel for ya. i know you probably want to stay secluded, hide in your room.. but maybe you should get out this memorial weekend.
go to leas cabin.. oh wait.. you work, huh? well i do too, so maybe we can kick it... whatever...
like wank, i got your back.. just ask, fucker.